without you..

Does being free also means being lonely? I don't think so, I've lived my life for so long without you that it won't matter that you're out of it now. All you can do now is remember, because we'll never make another memory. I'm happy now. Without you.

Do not take me... For granted.

Do not take me

For granted.

I am not yours

Yet.

You're breaking my heart

Without holding it.

Does making me cry

Makes you happy?

Does hurting me

Also hurt you,

Or does it make you smile?

You say you love me,

But does it runs dry

After some time?

Do not take me

For granted.

I'm strong but I'm weak.

Do not

Take me for granted.

Please.

what to do?

After a year after my disastrous relationship with jack, here I am again standing between the cliff and the dangerous waters of the intangible chain called love. Haha. And now, after all the pain that I was forced to endure then, I can't actually think straight. What to do? I'm still in shock. I never expected that something like this would happen to me.. Now of all times, when I'm already starting anew and trying to break free from the nightmarish past I have.

But what am I saying? I guess I should tell you.. It started, maybe a week or two ago when I unexpectedly renewed contact with a longtime friend. At first, it was kind of fun. Of course, we've not talk for almost two or three years.. But then, things started to get pretty complicated when he begun to say things I did not--never--expected him to say. Like, for years, he's always been besotted withme and all that. Frankly, I thought it was all a big joke. But what shock I received I cannot explain when talked to my sister, then my mom, about the things he feels for me. And my mom is quite taken with him. So now, in my shoulder lies the decision whether to have him or not. The only problem is, I don't know what I feel.. I guess, I'm still scared to know..

redemption

I can never be a princess but I will forever be me. You said you love me as I am, but it was a statement you didin't mean at all. how then do you think i can forgive you? or more importantly, love you? Once, my love for you was worth all the risks and the deceptions, but then, it all had come to naught. You betrayed me in the worst possible way. It will do you more good if you'll stop waltzing with me right now, or you'll eventually feel the way I did all those times I made a foolish blind woman out of myself just for you. Or worst, more.

Je ne peux jamais être princesse mais je me serai à jamais. Vous avez dit que vous m'aimez comme je suis, mais c'était une déclaration vous didin › les moyens de t à tout. comment alors pensez-vous que je peux vous pardonner ? ou d'une manière importante, vous aimez plus ? une fois, mon amour pour vous valiez tous les risques et les tromperies, mais alors, il tout était venu rien. vous m'avez trahi dans la pire façon possible. Il vous fera plus bon si vous arrêterez de danser la valse avec moi maintenant, ou vous sentirez finalement la façon j'ai fait tous ces temps j'ai fait une aveugle sotte de me juste pour vous. Ou pire, plus.

when forever is just a word..

"I guess that's all forever is. Just one long trail of nows. And I guess all you can do is try and live one now at a time without getting too worked up about the last now or the next now."
--- Daniel Booker, The Horse Whisperer.

Isn't just that right? When I stumbled upon this certain passage, I knew that all along, I've been thinking with the same line of thought. Maybe that's why I never considered the phrase "now and forever" a valid one. Because, I'd rather prefer the phrase "forever and beyond".

And what is it they usually say? "Tomorrow never comes." So most likely, we'll NEVER find forever tomorrow, or even in the next tomorrows of tomorrow. Why? Because we can only take one day at a time. One "now"-- one "forever" -- each day.

someone will, but you will be you.

Someone will always be prettier.

Someone will always be smarter.

Someone's house will be bigger.

Someone's car will be better.

Someone's husband will fix more thingsaround the house.

JUST LET IT GO!

&& Love your circumstances..

JUST THINK..

The prettiest woman in the world canhave hell in her heart.

The most highly favored woman in yourjob may be unable to have children.

And the richest woman you know [[whohas the biggest house, nicest car, &&expensive clothes]] may be very lonely.

And the word says...

"If I have not Loved, I am nothing."

So Love who you are!In the morning, look in the mirror,smile & say..


"I am too blessed to be stressed & tooanointed to be disappointed!"



"BE "BLESSED" LADIES!!





= something they told me.. ('^.x)

learning from Caravaggio

"Tell me, is it possible to love someone who is not as smart as you are?...I mean, she may not be smarter than you. But isn't it important for you to think she is smarter than you in order to fall inlove? Think now. She can be obssessed by the Englishman because he knows more. You see, it is easier to fall in love with him than with you. Why is that? Because we want to know things, how the pieces fit. Talkers seduce, words direct us into corners. We want more than anything to grow and change..."

Isn't that just true? Indeed, for me, it is. For humans are curious creatures. We love to have answers and so we are always drawn to the keys that we think will lead us out of ignorance. And so they do. But often, we arejust too much excited that we forget to think about consequences. And so begins another whirlwind-chase for answers that eventually turns out to be carrier of a bigger luggage of curiosities than the one we're already holding.

I don't actually know how it is with other people. All that I know is that, we people will always be ignorant--one way or another. And that, we will always try not to be one and again and again, fail. A never-ending cycle of foolishness and knowing.