what to do?

After a year after my disastrous relationship with jack, here I am again standing between the cliff and the dangerous waters of the intangible chain called love. Haha. And now, after all the pain that I was forced to endure then, I can't actually think straight. What to do? I'm still in shock. I never expected that something like this would happen to me.. Now of all times, when I'm already starting anew and trying to break free from the nightmarish past I have.

But what am I saying? I guess I should tell you.. It started, maybe a week or two ago when I unexpectedly renewed contact with a longtime friend. At first, it was kind of fun. Of course, we've not talk for almost two or three years.. But then, things started to get pretty complicated when he begun to say things I did not--never--expected him to say. Like, for years, he's always been besotted withme and all that. Frankly, I thought it was all a big joke. But what shock I received I cannot explain when talked to my sister, then my mom, about the things he feels for me. And my mom is quite taken with him. So now, in my shoulder lies the decision whether to have him or not. The only problem is, I don't know what I feel.. I guess, I'm still scared to know..